Friday, March 5, 2010
A picture speaks a thousand words!!
Although I have stated many times that our adoption journey has been an incredible and life changing experience, it has not been without its trials. Nothing earth shattering or more than we can handle but there has been difficult bumps in the road. Many of those bumps occured before we actually traveled and were united with Sierra. But in the year that we have been home some issues doggedly remained. Attachment.... Something I took so for granted with my 3 boys. From the moment they were born they began to learn who their mother was and what she did. Sierra knew nothing about Mothers. Not only did she not have one but she also had no role model Moms. So she did not know,the first thing about Moms or Dads!! We had to teach her. And sometimes it was painful for us. As I have said before, she liked us well enough but she pretty much likes everyone. I would take her to a friend's house and if she needed something she would go to her friend's mother. Sometimes I worked on a Saturday and when I came home there was no recognition at all, nothing, nada. Sometimes I would have to go hide and cry. I knew it was normal but it still hurt. Slowly we have seen a change. It took almost a year. I am grateful to have been able to be home and spend all day with her. Now, sometimes she likes daddy better and sometimes me but that's OK, I love that she loves us both. So imagine me getting all teary eyed this morning when she comes upstairs and says " Mama, I made this picture of me and you!!" And I turned around and saw. And then she said "look Mama we are holding hands and we are rabbits" Yes Sierra, we are holding hands now and I for one will never let go. You get it now. Mamas love you forever and they always hold your hand. We have come such a long way.